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[magicalarchaeologist]

I hope that part of the fantasy ends up true. I was ready to spend decades here if need be, but it's more difficult.

I know, believe me. Lucifer offered to wipe the memories after it happened, as if that would help, but I had to live with it. I just didn't appreciate experiencing it a second time.

It sounds like you're speaking from experience?

private b/c it's cassian

[diametrically]

don't give up hope, istredd
it's the thing that keeps us going

[ There's another pause. ]

several experiences
i've been part of a war - am part of a war. i've seen other prisoners "reprimanded", and i saw my adoptive father hung for trying to keep protesters safe

[ It's only a summary of his life and doesn't even begin to cover his life before Ferrix, but recounting those things, even briefly, is still enough to make him weary and to remind him of the anger in his veins. ]

[magicalarchaeologist]

Hope is not something I put a lot of stock in, but I know that's very cynical of me.

When they first started Summoning people here, Thorne threw most of them in the dungeons and kept them there. They almost executed one of us. I'm afraid you haven't come to a much safer place.

[diametrically]

it is, but the same can be said for plenty of other people
hope persists all the same

i didn't expect to come to a safer place if they have to resort to kidnapping us

[ And maybe, Istredd might get the impression that Cassian might be very used to things like this happening to him in his life. ]

[magicalarchaeologist]

Some of us are for the better, being here, so it creates an uncomfortable contrast, of being grateful and hateful at the same time.

[diametrically]

it would be different if they didn't keep us here under pretenses
it would be different if that's exactly how oppression operates and wants you to feel

[ They're perhaps harsh, direct words, but Cassian has so rarely been a soft, indirect person. ]

it doesn't always have to feel like that, istredd
it won't always feel like that

[magicalarchaeologist]

Lucifer's dead. This is his only chance at life, our only chance to be together. It makes us weak and vulnerable to Thorne, yes, but I can't be sorry about anything to do with him.